In the beginning I felt I needed to have a reason. A plan. It needed to make sense. For me a little … but mainly for everyone else. I needed an explanation for my friends and family. It seemed absurd to do what we were about to do … and immature … and stupid … and irresponsible … and it just didn’t make sense. I was embarrassed. When people would start asking questions about where we were going, why we were going, what was the purpose, what did our kids think, how long would we be gone, etc !!! I would literally feel nauseas.
Then I would come home and shoot those questions right at Michael. ANSWERS! I needed answers so I didn’t feel like an idiot trying to explain something I didn’t understand. My chest gets tight even typing about it. PRESSURE. Such pressure. Why was I agreeing to it when I was so torn? At first, to be a submissive wife. Now looking back, it’s because there is a little wild in my soul that has always desired to live a CRAZY life … one that doesn’t fit into the puzzle that the world has created.
Adventurous. But that had been buried for so long. That is something we are supposed to “grow out of” … right?
Well maybe. But I’ve decided something. God didn’t say so. He didn’t say I had to work a 9 to 5 that I didn’t enjoy. He didn’t say I had to put my kids in public school. He didn’t say I have to go to church every Sunday. He didn’t say I had to live a uniformed, stationary life. He didn’t say I had to raise my kids to do that either. He didn’t say we all have to be the SAME. What He did say is to:
“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.”
“freely you have received; freely give.”
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy; and where thieves break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”
These are just a few from Matthew!
Y’all, you do YOU!
God calls some to be the President of a company – one that prays over their employees and runs an honest business.
He calls some to be the school janitor that prayers over the students and staff as he/she cleans.
Some are called to be stay and home moms.
Some are called to be the bubbly receptionist that we all enjoy being on the other end of the line with.
The point is – we are ALL CALLED TO SOMETHING!!!!!
Find your calling! Seek it! Chase it! He will reveal it to you! Inside of that is where you will find FREEDOM!
I don’t have all the answers and that feels REALLY REALLY GOOD … let the adventures begin.